Thursday, April 10, 2014

Screaming



      Does anyone know what it's like to try and be upbeat and positive all the time?  You try and try to make a difference despite how hard it is just to get up some morning's.  Well  I come from a family of hard workers no matter what!   It just isn't in any of us to just sit back and waa waa waa but  this morning was one of those days I felt the water works trying to make it's way.  I worked so hard the last few days trying to get ahead of the game before the hot ass heat gets here.  The deck was shaping up and as soon as I was done in the kitchen I was going to try and scrub it clean but,  of course the dogs get mud everywhere,  chew up sticks and my Belle knocked over my newly planted morning glory's I wanted to attract my humming birds.  Of course Steve could care less,  it's not like something happened to his lawn.  All I want is a quiet pretty place . I'm willing to do it myself but I just don't learn!  I can't have anything nice. Last year Steve made it so nice in the front with rocks and flowers and they all destroyed it.  So this year I thought I'll do it on the deck because I love flower's so much but, I was wrong as usual.  I don't feel well enough to keep doing the same things over and over again.  It's too much for me.  I think Steve thinks because I don't complain much about how I feel that I must feel wonderful. 

Wrong! he hasn't a clue.  Everything takes a lot longer to do from just a couple of years ago. Some days I want to cut off my other leg it hurts so much,  and my hand hurts and swells by the end of the day that I can't even use it.  It sucks that he could care less how the inside of the house looks with the exception of his study, don't screw with that room.  But,  I understand about his study so why can't he understand how I feel?


Tomorrow is another day.

Thursday, April 3, 2014

Just saying ~~~



   Just because the past didn't turn out like you may have wanted it to,  doesn't mean your future can't be better than you imagined.


Good words to try and live by or you'll allow yourself to suffocate in your own personal hell.  It can be hard if that's all you know how to do,  but saying it's too late to embrace the moment and allow yourself to have some enjoyable times  is foolish.


Just because your older and things may take longer to do, it  shouldn't dictate your life.